“Everyone wants a rock bottom. Some Icarus shit. But the truth is some holes keep going, yawning, heady, one mistake becomes three: there’s always a dark darker than the dark you know.”
& isn’t this body the perfect setting / for a horror movie? & isn’t it so full of blood?
— torrin a. greathouse, from “my gender is the-glowing-fluorescent-sign-on-a-motel-in-the-middle-of-fucking-nowhere-but-all-of-the-bulbs-are-blown-out-except-a-single-red-question-mark-flickering,” published in Vanilla Sex
“⁴⁷I WANT MY SKELETON TO BE ABLE TO FIND ITS OWN HAPPINESS WHEN I AM GONE. YOU HAVE SERVED YOUR TIME. NOW GO. CHASE AFTER YOUR DREAMS. DON’T YOU DARE COME BACK. YOU ABOMINABLE DARLING. ⁴⁸I HOPE THAT YOUR SKELETON & MY SKELETON CAN BE HAPPY TOGETHER WHEN WE ARE BOTH DEAD & OTHERWISE OCCUPIED.”
— Eleanor Eli Moss, “THE BOOK OF DEATH,” from THE HOLY BIBLE
lullaby, chuck palahniuk // compel, lyd havens // landscape with black coats in snow, richard siken // an unofficial rose, iris murdoch // a great and terrible beauty, libba bray // rebecca, daphne du maurier // haunted, beyoncé // almost heaven, judith mcnaught // the princess diarist, carrie fisher // halloween, naiche lizzette parker.
The god of dirt came up to me many times and said so many wise and delectable things; I lay on the grass listening to his dog voice, crow voice, frog voice; now he said, and now,
“Do I dare mention God in this poem?
God is wild, and not human
and when people make God human
he stares at you through the eyes of a bear
and beats his terrible bearded chest
and guffaws into the stars.”
“… But every land should be a holy land. One should find the symbol in the landscape itself of the energies of life there. That’s what all early traditions do. They sanctify their own landscape.”
“Her heart was heavy because it was open, and so things filled it, and so things rushed out of it, but still the heart kept beating, tough and frighteningly powerful and meaning to shrug off the rest of her and continue on its own.”
“If we can measure
the distance of illuminated gas from the location
of our bodies, why can’t we find our dead?
Why can’t we find the nights that taunt us, images
more vivid than stars? Can’t we find the angle
between us and our grief?”